Sapphire and I started to rot almost instantly. All the things we had together before Angel had festered, and it became clear to both of us that we were staying together because of familiarity. Just wait. I’m going to give you an example. Just give me a minute. This one thing first. She worked second… Continue reading Aftermath New Girl 10: The Nightmare
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Aftermath New Girl 9: Legends
Angel and I didn’t survive Christmas Break. She didn’t kick me out when we broke up, but I was no longer being watched. I was much of the time trapped at her house. When Bekah showed up to pick me up one day, I was… well, I was at home. I can’t tell you what… Continue reading Aftermath New Girl 9: Legends
Aftermath New Girl 8: Second Christmas
The second Christmas after Bekah entered my life is nothing but a huge confusing blur of gifts, pain, love, and more confusion. I remember four Christmas celebrations. I don’t remember what order they came in. I don’t remember everything about them. All I can say is that it all started with a missing 250 dollars.… Continue reading Aftermath New Girl 8: Second Christmas
Aftermath New Girl 7: Angel
I was walking back from dropping off Sapphire and I kicked it on the street. I was not looking for this. It was looking for me. That was when I knew something had to change. Sapphire and I had gotten into a fight. I don’t remember about what, and she had stormed off. Had marched… Continue reading Aftermath New Girl 7: Angel
Aftermath New Girl 6: Coward
Here, let me try to describe what it was like to live in Kentwood the year after that summer. Let’s start by saying, this was not my first choice of dorms. I wanted Wells again. Well, I was supposed to want Wells again. It is where Sapphire and I had gotten together, and we put… Continue reading Aftermath New Girl 6: Coward
Aftermath New Girl 5: The Weekend
One day, while having sex with Sapphire, I called out Bekah’s name. We both ignored it. We acted like it never happened and we finished. We laughed and played, then I excused myself to go into the bathroom, and in that shitty little bathroom in Burg and mine’s shitty little apartment, I wept. I cried… Continue reading Aftermath New Girl 5: The Weekend
Aftermath New Girl 3: McWhatever’s
“It’s the worst movie ever made,” the guy across from me said. “By far. If you like being told what to do by the government, then sure, yeah, celebrate Forrest Gump. But if you have a mind of your own, then you ought to know better!” The guy leaned across the table and leered at… Continue reading Aftermath New Girl 3: McWhatever’s
Aftermath New Girl 2: The Long Walk
She woke me up kissing me. I looked at her with a smile and saw Sapphire’s face. I closed my eyes and hated myself, hating that I had for just one second thought it was Bekah. Shadow reminded himself Bekah was gone. There was no Bekah. We pulled back the blanket curtain that hung from… Continue reading Aftermath New Girl 2: The Long Walk
Hollow Man 24: Destiny Part 3
I released Teardrop Road on June 23, 2021. I think it was a Thursday. It was pretty devastating to put it out in the world on the big stage. Having your secrets on a blog is one thing. The worldwide stage opens up doubts and fears that I expected but could never prepare myself for. However, this… Continue reading Hollow Man 24: Destiny Part 3
Hollow Man 23: Mary Part 4
I released Teardrop Road on June 23, 2021. I think it was a Thursday. It was pretty devastating to put it out in the world on the big stage. Having your secrets on a blog is one thing. The worldwide stage opens up doubts and fears that I expected but could never prepare myself for. However, this… Continue reading Hollow Man 23: Mary Part 4
